I am one of the many 80s children who were brought up by grandparents whilst my single mother went to study far from home. I’m from Saulsville, one of the many townships in Pretoria. I went to school there until my mother came back and decided that it would be best if she took me to a multi racial school and that’s just basically all I have to say about my childhood. My grand mother was my pillar. 

I think I’m scared, a lot of people that I grew up with or even meet recently will tell you what a relentless and inspiring woman I am, but in all honesty I don’t think what I portray and what I am is the same person. I come across as confident, strong-willed and very courageous but behind all this is a little fragile girl who is very scared. I want to make my parents proud; I want to break away from being stereo-typed as a single mother who despite her downfalls knows where she is going because I do but don’t have a plan on how to get there. I pray every night for strength; I pray for guidance; I pray for a bright future filled with joy and all round contentment. I have a couple of children in my neighbourhood that look up to Sesi Busi, who has a job and a place of her own (which is something you don’t get to see often where I come from). 

I know I’m talented, when I was a campus radio presenter everyone used to tell me how good I am and should pursue a career in broadcasting, but today I find myself working a 9-5 which doesn’t do much for me except pay the bills but it’s not my true passion, because radio is, but I think that only the chosen few; your Azanias, Bonangs,Unathis etc are the lucky ones who managed to get into this industry whereas people like me aren’t lucky enough. I sit at home and wonder what would have become of me if I had followed my dreams and did what I was MEANT to do which was radio presenting, I have no doubt that I’m talented and don’t think I just sat there and never tried anything, I have dropped my demo tapes in almost all the radio stations in Gauteng and the phone calls I got were from indigenous language radio stations who asked if I can’t present in that particular language but unfortunately English is the only language I know fluently and everything else I don’t speak it as well as I should. 

I’m a good Communicator/PR person, which is what I do, but I think I would be a better radio presenter although I would still want a career in Communications, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with being an “AND GIRL” as Sarah Shongwe puts it. 

I have decided to get out of my comfort zone and pursue my dreams and stop being so scared and in a few years time I will be a Radio Presenter, Sports Show presenter, Media Specialist and…, I will wear all these hats with pride and hold my head up high because I know I’m destined for bigger things instead of being afraid because fear is a product of the devil who doesn’t want to see God’s children prosper and showcase their God given talents. 

I honestly still don’t know how I’m going to go about this but someday, somehow, something has got to give and I’M POSITIVE about that. From now onwards I promise not to be scared, to take chances and strive for what is rightfully mine and to press on to the greater achievements of the future.